its 4 09 and i've been up since 2 ish..... Pain is an ugly friend. It scares me, irritates me and makes me so anxious that I can barely stand being idle. Sleep is no longer much of an option.... and it's hard to take care of a 17 month old w/ no sleep or .... mashed out on oxycodone......

I hurt my back 3 weeks ago tomorrow and each day it gets worse, not better.... that can't be good. Went to the Dr on Monday.... had EKG, xrays, blood work.... and have an MRI scheduled for tomorrow..... if I can lay flat or still for that matter.....

Im scared of finding out what it is, I am scared of not finding out what it is.....

im just scared