It is my wish that if I can be good at one thing...it's being a parent. Who knew how much work it would be. For that matter, I have an easy kid. Always has been. 16 months last SUnday....and "no" has started .... along w/ some tantrum like behavior... I've wondered when my number was up!

For Evelyns sake, I hope that I can be a good parent... firm (without a doubt)... fun and fair... but more than anything I hope to give her the confidence to go out and live life to the fullest... w/ full knowledge that I am right here, loving her all along. May she never doubt that....

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In other words....I hurt my back. Sometimes im so uncomfortable that I hold my breath and forget to breathe....and make it worse. Sleeping last night was a chore and I wince when Ev holds her arms out to be held.... worse yet, when I have to haul her up and down stairs or pick her up off the ground. BUbba is on call this weekend so the potential for help is really lacking.

I can completely see why people start taking drugs. People w/ chronic pain. I've had pain for less than 24 hours and im ready....ready, oh so ready to take it away......


ugh.