Life is great, hard, a breeze, so much fun, painful, exciting, overwhelming and every describeable word in between.

Trying to have a baby and not have it work is something that I try over and over to describe, to get out of my fingers as to not let it fester so inside me.... and I for some reason, I just cannot. SUcks to try, and live this life under the constant schedule of medication, the side effects, the waiting, the execution of tasks.... the wonder, the disappointment....

Sucks..sucks...sucks.... How long can I allow it to keep sucking?