HOw can a pregnancy test be something that can send you soaring....or cut you deep? Today, was a cut deep day. -big old sigh- Time is a'tickin' for this clock and well, its crushing me. HOw can you hold your 11 month 2 week old and be mesmerized and still ache to have another. A sibling, a pal, a partner in crime....

Another loss.... in it's own way. Very grey day... w/ splashes of brightness (Evelyn).... can't wait til BUbb gets home and share my grief......