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I am so sorry. I am sorry that I am not the greatest friend and that I obviously messed up enough to end a friendship. Sorry that it took so long for me to write this letter to you apologising. For the longest time I assumed you'd forgive me and our friendship would return... finally, finally I realize the severity of the situation.

Never have I considered myself a perfect person. I've always known that i'm flawed but each year that creeps by reminds me even more how flawed I truly am. I have always considered myself a fairly religious or rather spiritual person. After Evelyn, I'd say it's even more so true. How could it not be. When I go to bed at night or do my personal reflection I ask the big man to forgive my sins and guide me to be a better person. I'm sure there are people laughing as they read this but im fine with that. For me it's about my spiritual path/journey, not about anyone else.

As Evelyn grows I see her sponging up information each day at a alarming rate. KNowing this reminds me that my actions speak much louder than words. My job is to teach her to be the best person she can be on a day to day basis. ThAt is daunting and sounds like a tough but exciting job. My wish is for her to grow up being a better person than me.

So, I can not grovel or I won't... I can not pretend that this isn't my fault. I can only go forth in the knowledge that I am a honest, caring, true person and yes, I am flawed but so are we all. You are too, if you weren't you'd be honest with me.

Be the best person you can be. Live respectfully and proud. Go forth and be happy.

I am truly very sorry.

AMy