I realise it's been a month or so since i've posted.... so much has happened in that last month that I've just been living in the moment for the most part.

Where to begin....?

A few weeks ago? A month now I guess..... my Mom who has a rare form of Parkinsons.... aspirated while eating. It had to be very scary for her and she developed fluid or whatever in her lungs due to this..... fast forward 2 weeks..... Mom wasn't getting any better...she refused to eat for close to a week and then they took her from the NH to the Dr for a chest xray.... pneumonia. The dreaded death disease for my MOms illness... off to the hospital for a week..... for intraveneous antibiotics etc.... the oral ones at the NH weren't working. She was sprung last Monday and has been home a week. While at the hospital they put in a feeding tube for safer means to retain nutrition. She is only marginally okay w/ that but she's lost 50 pds since January so she needs it now....... so now its in...

Since her return to the NH a week ago.... not once has anyone offered to leave her room, food to eat, etc... basically any stimulation. She has gone downhill so much in the last week it isn't even funny.... My Mom is 77, a proud, strong Norwegian.... who learned to tough it out, keep the bad to yourself, show a stiff upper lip and smile and go forth.... So, needless to say... until we asked her about the week on Sunday, she hadn't said a word. My mom can barely speak anymore. You have to be trained in whisperdelayedmumbling to understand. That is the Parkinson's. Not Michael J Fox's parkinsons..... but Dudley Moore's Parkinsons..... very debilitating. We understand her because we let her take her time, and we try to guess what she's saying. We do have 1 finger for yes.....2 for no....to ask her questions....

Anyway, im sure im babling.... but well, i've been trying to deal the last week, with the thought that every day is one day closer to the inevitable. Something horrible happening to my Mom and her no longer being w/ us. That will be it.... no parent's left... for Mark or myself... and im struggling w/ that. I have friends who are always ragging on their parents for petty things.... and I want to slap them... or maybe it's me, who wants parents...and issues...and reasons to rag... I dunnoo....

On to Evelyn...

She's amazing. Fun and spunky... rolling over to the point I have to go help her out of her messes of getting arms and legs stuck out of the crib. No bumper pads for us... in case of smothering...but I can see where they'd be handy for this very thing.....



Look how rollypolly she's FINALLY getting!

Here is the 4th of July.



my chub monster!

ooh and here are her 1 month and 3 month pics

www.photographybyjocelyn.net

go to client proofs
when prompted for a password.... type schulz

there we are.... our little family

so, life is good, stressful, full, blessed, hard, busy, lazy and all in between

I will post more pics of Ev and Grandma later tonite or tomorrow and

RICE CEREAL...she started on Sunday (she was FIVE MOnths OLd yesterday!)