so, here it is several weeks and no posts...

It's not like nothing exciting ever happens... it's just ... well, most likely it's only exciting to me. Yano what I mean. So let's see.

My whole life has changed. I can no longer be the selfish biotch I once was. Never would I have ever considered myself selfish but now, stepping far back, from the old me.... I can see plain as day... I was selfish.

Now, everything I do is centered around someone else. HOly cowpies, I am someones mother. It's all good though. Not complaining as much as stating it outloud... Like, if I actually say it to someone it might sink in a bit. Heh =)

Last weekend we headed south to NE on Saturday. Mark's aunt Marilyn has been sick w/ Ovarian cancer and well, I didn't want to wait til the funeral to see everyone. A 4 hour drive is not an excuse for the mumbling people do... at funerals......"blah blah blah..ive been busy.... life is full of commitments...blah blah blah..." So we went. Marilyn held Evelyn twice... and even in deaths grip, she was still so incredibly beautiful. Marilyn fought a long and courageous battle w/ cancer for 4 years and died this morning w/ her entire family around her. She was a strong woman who left a legacy of wonderfulness behind.... goood job Marilyn! Such a beautiful soul.

Last SUnday we headed to MN to see Grandma and the Aunties. Lots of kisses and Evelyn is smiling now so that was thrilling! Isn't it funny that something as simple as a babies' smile amazes me? It brings tears to my eyes tho... I helped create that thing that just smiled.... whoa....

Tuesday, we had family pictures and Evelyn's 2 month pictures. Nekie baby on a black pillow... TOOOO CUTE! can't wait to get them back....oh yeah...cannot wait.... !! She didn't smile once. Not one lil squeaker even.... but she still opened her tiny lil almond shaped eyes as big as possible and flashed her pretty blues.......

THursday night / Friday we were in a blizzard warning.... it's been in the 60s... and boom... blizzard... and sure enough....50 mile an hour winds and some 10 inches of snow = 5 foot drifts.... yoinks! We still have a drift at the end of the drive way that Mark needed his 4wheel drive for. He is on call this weekend so he used the snowblower to make a 5 foot dent in it...enough to get out to the hospital. Needless to say.... he's been at the hospital since 7 AM this morning... gosh I miss him.... Evelyn needs to see someone other than me =).... poor little girl.

Monday we are headed back to NE for the funeral Tuesday morning. I made the executive decision to go the night before and stay at a hotel.... instead of 8plus hours in a car TUesday. Atta girl AMy...

Let's see, wh at else is new. Oh .... I have no new pics to share.....which is pitiful. I need to change that I can tell... I will take care of that tomorrow....

More than anything... the last few weeks have been a time of change. I cannot even imagine going to work every day. The smiles... the almost giggles or coos... her figuring out how to play on her bouncer or on her puppy play time mat..... all in the last 2 weeks.... it's so amazing to watch them learn... they are sponges right now.

She is still wearing newborn clothes.. at 8 plus weeks. She is almost out of them thank goodness but eeeesh, I want desparately to put her in jeans and every pair of pants I try just falls right off her... She does however wear 1 diapers now... that was evident in a nanosecond... when to switch ...hehehe ... but .. welll... nuff said about poo


K... I better go spend some quality time w/ her before she heads to bed... Last night was her first night in her nursery. She spent the first 8 weeks in a pack n play in our room... since her room is way across the house... well, sh e did fine ( duh, of course ) .. I on the other hand cried myself to sleep thinking I wouldn't hear if she stopped breathing or ...well.. a million other worries....

We both lived to tell the tale...

More later! ToodLes!